Concepts.

Recently I've decided to take upon a rather large but loving project. 

Large: It's going to be highly time consuming due to practicalities. Schedules, research,  having patience with myself and others rather than force are all going to factor in on the "finished" or endpiece. I don't have a date picked for it, but I also would rather it not linger and endure the long , dangling  by a thread-type route. However, I'm also not going to rush. 

Loving: Easier said than done. Ideally, my goal is  to encompass within this project all that I hold dearly to me. A muddled up mess of everything, disguised like it's a parcel to my overseas lover.

I don't want to jinx, spoil or put this project on any sort of pedestal by informing anyone fully what it's about, just yet. Maybe when it's anatomy is more definable .I say this for multiple reasons. 

A) I'm not fully sure what it's about myself. I don't ever want to be full of myself.     

B) I'm open to ideas. I have virtuosic pursuits but could always use a point in a better direction if I'm clearly about to derail.

C)  It's my baby. I've never been as fully submersed in something of this (potential) magnitude. I don't want to smother it, but I know I'll going to end up entirely enamored with discussing it ALL the time, and physically and mentally working on and towards "the end" will be my complete and utter obsession. 

Photos: From the archives. I took these photos on a road trip to the Okanagan Valley almost 7 years ago.

I'd much rather..

[Be scheming]

There's been a lot of it going on lately. Avoiding the frigid and great outdoors is pretty easy when you keep busy.

1. Book of concepts: The "plan" is to share one day soon.

2. Listography: Tête a tête, except with myself. 

3. Adam Bede by George Eliot.

4. Watercolour pencil crayons: Très amusant.

5.  Pentax Super ME: Trying to figure how to work this bb is worthwhile, but time consuming.  The instructional manual is from sometime in the eighties, and has burned a big hole in my brain, then filled it with boredom. Just like when I was tediously scouring over "The Communist Manifesto" for a midterm essay, except way worse.

you are what you eat.

breakfast & me.

little one

lazy sundays with my little prince seamus. i took this (almost) two summers ago. he hasn't grown an inch. off to get film. Le film est comme une fantaisie, d'accord?

Honey won't you hold me tight, get me through Grey Gardens tonight.

I'm being super stingy lately. Only eating while at work. Or if my Mom makes/ orders in something, I'll have that maybe. I go to McNally  and nibble on pecan squares and tonic water berry spritzers for a great $5.00 meal. Read a bit, window shop.  Don't buy a book unless it's under $10. Thrift for clothes, books, etc. Hardly that even. Used my Xmas gift certificates to their last pennies. Except for Tim Horton's, I'll probably save it for one day when I feel like waiting 20 minutes for a  honey lemon tea. I personally enjoy nothing more than staying huddled in. Protected from the demonic winds and wretched Manitoba drivers.

This winter has been pretty grey. It's giving me not the worst, but "could be better" vibe. I wish the  most opportune letter would arrive in the mail & resolve this heavy-hearted season, giving me a month, and a date with Charles de Gaulle to look forward to. I've never met you, but already I love you.

Tomorrow is a noteworthy day. Getting my 2nd film camera. Inheritance from my Granddad. First baby brokedown what seems to be beyond it's face value in restoration cost. I didn't know how to use that thing/ can't find the film that I printed. Most of them were of family members/ out of focus trashers. The rest can be found here. My multifaceted source of teenage outpouring. Recently have updated that site, but with little luck/ feedback. Said Granddad can be found in my gallery. Besides the possibility of thrifting (looking for Topshop knockoff garments), I'll be working for some 8 odd hours. After: drink wine, relax, nap, bath. Sounds perfect. Cloud 9 even.

topic: beauty

une belle fille

Linguistics is fascinating. I've been attempting to pick up a combination of the Greek language (beginning with writing/ saying the letters of the alphabet), and secondly touching up on my French. Touching up= starting from scratch.

I wish I wasn't a Grade 9 Français drop out. My teacher was absolutely irritating and I think she slaughtered the French language. She made us listen to ancient Paula Abdul tapes. After most French sentences, she would say "Is that Mmm-Kay there guys?" as a question of clarification, but the way it was personified and entwined into her overall personality rubbed me the wrong way. She threatened to "karate/ judo chop us" if our "group" or class's homework was late. Also, she hated my handwriting with a divine passion. Mme Fitzjohn; quoted as a CJH "fossil", your fashion sense was a little behind, but your efforts deserve an A+.

Back on the topic of linguistics. You can use a word like "beauty" once a day, week, etc, but is it's true/ deeper meaning ever taken into perspective? Probably not. I use words, forgetting their meanings all too often. This is a post to appreciate the beauty of the word beauty.

I think beauty is most importantly [held] from within. Beautifying the soul should be held in the utmost regards, and should be practiced daily as if it were worshiping a divinity such as Athena, Venus, Apollo, or Artemis..

"Assuredly all the gods are august and beautiful in a beauty beyond our speech. And what makes them so? Intellect; and especially Intellect operating within them (the divine sun and stars) to visibility......"
-Plotinus

BEAUTY

French: beauté.
Greek: ομορφιά.

noun ( pl. -ties)

1 a combination of qualities, such as shape, color, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, esp. the sight : "I was struck by her beauty" | an area of outstanding natural beauty.
• a combination of qualities that pleases the intellect or moral sense.
• [as adj. ] denoting something intended to make a woman more attractive : beauty products | beauty treatment.

2 a beautiful or pleasing thing or person, in particular
• a beautiful woman.
• an excellent specimen or example of something : the fish was a beauty, around 14 pounds.
• ( the beauties of) the pleasing or attractive features of something : the beauties of the Pennsylvania mountains.
• [in sing. ] the best feature or advantage of something : the beauty of keeping cats is that they don't tie you down. (HAH)


PHRASES
"beauty is in the eye of the beholder proverb beauty cannot be judged objectively, for what one person finds beautiful or admirable may not appeal to another."

"beauty is only skin-deep proverb a pleasing appearance is not a guide to character."

less than quatre

My heart and soul are getting a little heavy when I think of the follow series of events:

1) Starting my day with an expresso, strolling around Paris.
2) Getting lost and flustered, because I'm in Paris.
3) Enjoying myself leisurely and quite remarkably so, for a huge slab of the day. A slab that is equivalent in mass to an entire cheesecake.
4) Finishing my day with a bottle of Bordeaux, maybe two?



Who knows, who cares what else.