28.1.11

real rL




Why is it that I go out, just to have my predetermined passé feelings of this city surface up all over again. Une petite drama, pour aucune raison. I'd rather stay home and pretend I'm a cartoon. Fantasize of all the things I'd do, if I were that very cartoon.

Perhaps I could take this life I live, and animate it so that whenever I feel wild, whenever I feel out of this world, I can just tune in. Nuances given a new view. Sit back and watch me whirl. Sit back and watch yourself for awhile.

Here I am. I don't look real. I don't feel real. Real is just a word that we made up to get along with ourselves. We call our language "real". But we also made it up, organized it from complete gibberish. Language is primarily used to confuse; to diffuse all the wrong types of news.

27.1.11

c'est un oui



i want to ride my bicycle, je veux prendre mon vélo. bien que, ne pas comme ceci. l'hiver.

 je vais en France. mai et juin.

25.1.11

(bientôt)




Demain est une nouveau jour pour pouvoir. Une jour pour aimer de jolie choses dans la vie.

Que est ce une faire?

Lire avec Walt. Oui, d'accord.
Danser la valse avec Walt dans ma tête?  Bien aussi.
Sortir la photo qui prend avec mon Pentax. Oui merci!
Plus trop!

24.1.11

une adventure!



from the night of the canoe with my fav' friend su. bundled up like idiots.

23.1.11

jardins.

influencé par "jardins sous la pluie"


Dans spécifique; Kazuya Akimoto.


As of lately I've been completely and utterly inspired by Debussy's Estampes.  The piece above is so beautiful. Akimoto was inspired by this song as well, I believe. I admire the textures created, specifically the swirls/ possible puddles of rain. The overall fluidity and motion is unworldly. Perplexing and almost fictitious. 

It's less than rare that I become so moved by music. But here I am. Waking up to these same familiar keystrokes, making a light breakfast for myself. Organizing and shuffling things around in my room with images of the gardens flooding my head. I tote it around, playing it while at work. And again with my Mum over a glass of sauv blanc & supper. Writing, reading, falling asleep..

I don't think I could exhaust my love for Debussy, ever. What inspires you each day?

take some time.


 
Messy & childlike, isn't it?
I spent my Friday night with a dear friend. She's full of lady-like attributes, and has the most generous family I know.  We got bundled up (t-shirt, flannel, sweater, jacket, double scarves, jeans, snow pants, sorel boots, big furry hat, double gloves) and embarked upon a winter journey down the frozen river. We stopped to lay in the snow for quite some time. I felt five years old, right there. We breathed in the arctic-like air, looking at the clouds overhead. Watching them move with the wind. I saw the man on the moon, through the bony fingertips of the trees of spring, summer, fall's past. It's hard to admire the residual love of the earth if all you are doing is hustling from one schedule to the next.


She led me from the river to a frozen creek. Mossy remains of (once again) another seasons flourished efforts. I was truly humbled by ice ledges, uncharted snow, and especially the underbelly of bridge number one. Imagine a canoe, upside down. You're treading water.  I physically felt as though I were under an unreasonably sized canoe, but reality was truly harsher tonight on my wandering mind than all the weather I've endured this winter alone. We avoided bridge number two deliberately, it emitted a strange chill, even from a distance..

To warm our hearts and hands, we dispersed paint materials at random. In time my arms were covered with candy apple red, splashes of sunshine yellow, blotches of sky blue, drops of grassy green.  There was no longer cool winter’s air to drill into my bones.

We talked of our favourite instances from Amélie, then I go home to imagine my life being discussed from a third person point-of-view. As if I were Riél from Montmartre. Pardon my horrendous French.

"J'aime petits déjeuners avec oeufs, je préfère écrire seul, promenades dans la nature, et surtout jour rêve."

22.1.11

not that tough.








"The road is dark, and it’s a thin thin line. But I want you to know I’ll walk it for you any time..

Well if you’re rough and ready for love, honey I’m tougher than the rest."



"having doubts"
that maybe the boss is wrong.